Barred

Well, this is both exciting and terrifying. I am officially an attorney at law in the state of New Jersey. I also passed the New York bar exam, but unlike New Jersey, they do Character & Fitness (sort of a background check for prospective lawyers) after the bar, so I probably won’t be admitted until 2015.

Each stage of my life, I think to myself “Really? That’s it?” I remember turning 18 and thinking “Really? I’m a legal adult now?” And graduating college and law school and thinking “A degree? Are you sure?” Not that it was always easy, but I guess I expected there to be more fanfare. It’s funny how responsibilities and milestones and such can sneak up on you.

Other than that, not much to say. My favorite holiday, Thanksgiving, is coming up. It’s long been my favorite because it seems like the least desecrated holiday (Black Friday notwithstanding). No gift exchanges or egg hunts or anything like that. Just late fall weather, family, and a nice home cooked feast. My family would occasionally have a Thanksgiving-esque Christmas dinner, but the dinner was never the main attraction. I really think that enjoying a nice meal and the pleasure of company is underappreciated. I wish more holidays were like Thanksgiving.

Why I’m Doing This

Time, what a bitch. Seems like yesterday I was in high school blogging with my closest friend. Looking back, my most recent post was mid 2006, his was towards the end of 2007. I ended that phase somewhere during my junior year of high school-my Xanga (does that still exist?) sort of outgrew its purpose as an emotional outlet as I rapidly matured. Looking back on those, I now think no one has any right to be that dramatic. All I can say is that was an interesting experiment, and probably one of the best decisions I made as an angsty young 15-16 year old. All these years later, I cringe at my own immaturity and yet I admire my friend’s erudition and incredibly consistent sardonic tone.

That’s an outlet I miss having, and it’s fascinating to have that brief window into my psyche circa 2005-2006. Not to mention the brief window into my friends’ lives. It was a wonderful experiment in shared journaling that I’m now beginning again alone. But I’ve also matured, I’ve seen what blogging can be. I plan to write about things other than my “feelings” and “experiences” though. Whatever I can write deeply and meaningfully about, I will post it here. My general purpose blog.

I can barely fathom how much time has passed, and how much life I’ve lived in the past 8 years. I’ve graduated high school, college, law school, taken the bar, and gotten married. I’ve kept in touch with the people who meant the most to me, and met new people since my emo blogging adventures, including my wife! My old friend in blogging has also graduated high school, and college, and immediately afterwards started his own business, which continues to grow. And yet, reading all those old entries, it’s striking how much still resonates with me after all these years. I wish we had recorded more, but I’m grateful for what we have, and what we still have time to make.

If I actually stick with this maybe I’ll be able to convince my old friend, or some new friends, or my wife, to join me. Until then, it’s just me. Maybe I’ll even learn something. All I know is what I’m feeling at any given moment. Maybe this will allow me to put it all into some sort of context. But the big picture? I don’t know man, I just don’t know.

First Post!

More to come. Stay tuned, nobody!